Someone once said “God is always in control in what is in control”. Isaiah 45:5-7 (ESV) “5 I am the Lord, and there is no other, besides me there is no God; I equip you, though you do not know me, 6 that people may know, from the rising of the sun and from the west, that there is none besides me; I am the Lord, and there is no other. 7 I form light and create darkness; I make well-being and create calamity; I am the Lord, who does all these things.”
I am avoiding the state of being negativity bias, nevertheless I believe that the one who has God’s calling his mind won’t stop wandering off seeking and sinking deeper, always in motion, always reviving and revolving around God’s preassigned and anointed designed purpose for Him.
Psalms 8:3-4 (ESV) “Then I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, 4 what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?”
I wonder, if it is truly sinful to live comfortably and safely content at the Home of here and now, but yet still walk through this life constantly fighting the feelings of being sick and tired of “Constantly Feeling Homesick” even much more? Even more so, often cannot help it but to keep on asking myself wondering how far is the distance between the place where we live today and the place we know deep inside our hearts is the true eternal HOME, final destination, last stop and our predestined destination.
HOME, where is it, how does it look like? The thought of how can one lives life without pursing it, living so distant from even trying to know what it means? Failing to prepare for it; rattles me. For without this pursuit; life will be raw, empty void and reality will be lifeless and harsh to bear. Only the true seekers have a real sense of this understanding. It takes very heavy toll to live life alone trying hard to stay standing tall and not to fall, no one to support, no one to walk this journey with, no one to prevent you from getting snatched and tore apart during the heavy storms of this spiritual warfare. Yet life keeps on moving forward, the clock of life still spinning clockwise counting down to our last day on this earth not really adding them up! It is vain to think that life will ever spin counterclockwise..the sky still turning and the earth and its seasons still re-birthing.
I wonder, if we are just a tiny dot inside the magnitude of life, have no control in what is in control in our lives? You can be standing still or you can be constantly on the run, it does not matter, life around you still moving faster than the speed of light and you are required to keep up with it, otherwise according to the values of this secular realm, your self-worth is equal to NOTHING, your wellbeing is irrelevant comparing to the many countless moving parts in this universe.
I wonder, what is it with the loud noisy thunder, and mighty striking lighting? Why is it that they keep on causing destruction to our path, the path to peace and calmness that we spend what feels like eternity to capture, maintain and always fighting to retain.
I wonder, how many more choices do we have to make still? While pressing forward restoring our lives on this earth. Facing the reality that many will choose to instead wander off God’s planned path and walk into the unknown wilderness of the dark side of life and into experiencing life in the sense of timelessness. Arguably, I question this saying that says “Sometimes we have to get lost before we can find ourselves”. But the real challenge becomes after we find ourselves are we willing to come out of this wilderness giving up the past letting go of our package and go into the new journey with a new heart, passion and mindset daring not to live this second chance by being negativity bias, rather daring greatly to pursue hard the Father’s heart.